To be honest I’ve never been the most creative guy. As a child I was horrible at drawing and anything that required lateral thinking I pretty much threw by the wayside. I guess that’s why I was drawn to computers and mathematics, they’re pretty straight forward and there’s always logical steps you can follow to get to your goal. Over the past few years I’ve begun to realise my creativity in other areas, and this blog has been a wonderful outlet to express myself. It’s a strange sort of coming of age for me, since now I’m starting to encounter all those problems that my much more creative friends have talked about.
The penny dropped pretty recently after I watched this video by Jay Smooth of Ill Doctrine:
He puts the problems that I’ve faced as a late creative bloomer into perspective. Whenever I sit in front of my computer and begin to write I always have to question whether or not what I’m writing is complete trash or if the whole idea of this blog is merely a feeble grab at some Internet fame. When I first started out my little hater kept telling me that every day someone didn’t visit my blog was a sign that I was not meant to do this sort of thing. He was kept at bay for several months until recently when I logged in to see the ugly 0 there again. All that doubt came flooding back and I started to question why I was even bothering doing this in the first place.
The good news out of all of this is that the last couple weeks of spotty posts haven’t been due to me caving into my little hater. With the starting of a new job and subsequently less time to blog I’ve usually lacked the time to post consistently. I had a rythym going at my old job and I just need to find that again with my new workplace, I’m sure I’ll get the swing of it in a month. The bigger, and more important reason is that I’ve been semi-secretly working on a new web application. With my 100th post coming up I felt I should do something special and it just so happened that I was planning to do a 1.0 release to the public this weekend, and my 100th post will introduce my application along with a cursory look back over the past 6 months or so of this blog, just for old times sake 🙂
So stay tuned, hopefully you’ll like what I’ve tried to do.
